Mother’s Day 2020

Happy Mother’s Day to all mothers wherever you are.

What a Mother’s Day this is. I’m a mother but I lost my Mam many years ago. When big life events happen, births, marriages,,deaths and the launch of rewind TV (which my mother would have loved) I often think, ‘Ee Mam what would you think of this?’ - no more so than today. What would you think of it all Mam? I wonder what she would say to me if she was here today. What would I say to you Mam? I would be so very worried about you. 

I am part of a set, a set of two mothers, we are Mam and Mum. I am Mam and my wife is Mum and we have a little girl. Usually on Mother’s Day we go to the cinema, we try to split the day, morning for my wife and afternoon for me. Our little girl is cheeky, she always wants to make me proud and always wants to wind up her Mum. How would you feel little one if  you knew the full extent of what is happening in the world? I am a ferocious Mamma Bear, I roar loudly at dangers lurking nearby, but my fur is soft, all cuddles are welcomed from my little cub. How will I protect you from all of this little bear?

So this is me, a little part of me that I wanted to share with you. I of course didn’t go to the cinema today, we were meant to create Mother’s Day cards but that went by the wayside. We didn’t exchange gifts. Not because we didn’t want to or that today wasn’t important, we didn’t because it just didn’t happen. We sat and watched Jurassic Park, granted a slightly left field Mother’s Day movie, but we all sat on the sofa together. We all sat on our L shaped sofa, my little girl to the left and my wife to the right and that was all we needed, no cards, no flowers, nothing. I looked at them both and knew how lucky I was to be sitting here watching ferocious dinosaurs cuddled up beside my two girls.

I miss you Mam. I miss talking to you, I miss being a daughter. The world has changed today, friends are talking to their mothers through glass windows and dropping off parcels on  doorsteps and I wish it could be me, to see you once more. I usually take flowers to the seaside and cast them a-drift from a little pier. You always loved the sea Mam. Be free! I think as I cast them out to sea, I like to think of you this way Mam, one wave that is  part of a bigger ocean. No flowers this year Mam but I can hear you saying - ‘You look after your family, never mind about throwing them flowers out to me!’.

I wonder how it must feel to be a Key Worker who is a Mother or a child whose parents are on the front line. I feel guilty that it is them and not me that are in service. I don’t know what to say but thank you, if you are the doctor or a nurse, cleaner, driver, carer and everything in between I say thank you. Thank you for your bravery. 

Well Happy Mother’s Day to you all. If ever there was a day to tell your Mother that you loved her then there is no better day than today. 

Happy Mother’s Day Mam, I love you. To my wife and daughter I say thank you for today, I am so very grateful to have you both in my life. 

Thank you for today.